/ Monday, August 27, 2007

I'm bored, depressed.. what else?

Hai... thought i was going to have a fabulous week ahead, but something spoilt my mood.



Was feeling very energetic and happy on Saturday. I worked full day. It's like, my colleagues there finally actually opened up and bothered to talk to me. It's hard for me to talk to them cos they're either elder than me or are middle-aged women already. Dunno why, but i felt energetic in the morning. Then there's this guy, surveyor or something, he told me i had great customer service skills. That made my day ^.^! It's like so seldom do you get to hear an elder person compliment the way u work.

Then there's this lady promoter, she was quite unfriendly one. When we were like "grp-chatting", she asked me what's my name, then said it was a nice name! She said ppl in her time not so lucky, have parents who give their children nice names. haha ^^

And then, at the end of the day at around 10.45pm, my female colleague had to take the taxi home cos it was very late already. She insisted on giving me a lift, even though i'm used to walking home myself. I think that was very nice..

That is why i felt happy on Saturday. Oh. And i got 7 voids. It's an improvement from the full-day 12 voids that i got last last week. Hehe. Will work hard to decrease it to 0.



Sunday was crap. Dunno what got into me, but i felt like crap. Was just on time for work, unlike normal times when i was 10 min early to open the shop. I had arranged to meet Emily and her church friends at Orchard after my work to shop and maybe watch Evans Almighty. Guess maybe this's the reason i was distracted and sian about work. Was counting down the time to be off from work. And then after work, felt so tired. Met Em and co. at Heeren. Went on shopping. Quite pai seh that i appeared sian while shopping cos Em was asking me whether i was sian with the shopping all not. Hahaha. It's the job's fault, not the shopping..

My legs were killing me. Dunno when i'll crumple to the floor. Haha. At last we didn't watch the movie. We'll catch it next time, maybe this week, but yet to confirm.



Today was bad. While i was shopping at Orchard last night, my colleague called me up and asked if i could work today. So i said yes. Thing is, i totally forgot about guitar practice!! Gosh. I was supposed to meet my friend at 1.45 at Dover, but only after i knocked off at 3.30 did i realise i forgot bout guitar. Shit. Obviously my friend was pissed after that. Recieved an sms from her after guitar saying she was the only female junior there. All the more i felt bad. If i were in her position i would be so embarrassed also.. I really dunno.... Must find a way to solve this thing..

Headache sia... The holidays brought so much problem, sometimes i wish school just continued as usual.

Yours Truly,

Bothered~

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ Monday, August 27, 2007

I'm bored, depressed.. what else?

Hai... thought i was going to have a fabulous week ahead, but something spoilt my mood.



Was feeling very energetic and happy on Saturday. I worked full day. It's like, my colleagues there finally actually opened up and bothered to talk to me. It's hard for me to talk to them cos they're either elder than me or are middle-aged women already. Dunno why, but i felt energetic in the morning. Then there's this guy, surveyor or something, he told me i had great customer service skills. That made my day ^.^! It's like so seldom do you get to hear an elder person compliment the way u work.

Then there's this lady promoter, she was quite unfriendly one. When we were like "grp-chatting", she asked me what's my name, then said it was a nice name! She said ppl in her time not so lucky, have parents who give their children nice names. haha ^^

And then, at the end of the day at around 10.45pm, my female colleague had to take the taxi home cos it was very late already. She insisted on giving me a lift, even though i'm used to walking home myself. I think that was very nice..

That is why i felt happy on Saturday. Oh. And i got 7 voids. It's an improvement from the full-day 12 voids that i got last last week. Hehe. Will work hard to decrease it to 0.



Sunday was crap. Dunno what got into me, but i felt like crap. Was just on time for work, unlike normal times when i was 10 min early to open the shop. I had arranged to meet Emily and her church friends at Orchard after my work to shop and maybe watch Evans Almighty. Guess maybe this's the reason i was distracted and sian about work. Was counting down the time to be off from work. And then after work, felt so tired. Met Em and co. at Heeren. Went on shopping. Quite pai seh that i appeared sian while shopping cos Em was asking me whether i was sian with the shopping all not. Hahaha. It's the job's fault, not the shopping..

My legs were killing me. Dunno when i'll crumple to the floor. Haha. At last we didn't watch the movie. We'll catch it next time, maybe this week, but yet to confirm.



Today was bad. While i was shopping at Orchard last night, my colleague called me up and asked if i could work today. So i said yes. Thing is, i totally forgot about guitar practice!! Gosh. I was supposed to meet my friend at 1.45 at Dover, but only after i knocked off at 3.30 did i realise i forgot bout guitar. Shit. Obviously my friend was pissed after that. Recieved an sms from her after guitar saying she was the only female junior there. All the more i felt bad. If i were in her position i would be so embarrassed also.. I really dunno.... Must find a way to solve this thing..

Headache sia... The holidays brought so much problem, sometimes i wish school just continued as usual.

Yours Truly,

Bothered~

No signboards
no direction from here.
But I think we should climb on

I see lots of clouds,
damn where are the signs.

Oh I see it, there's light!
And there's a path
a path that leads us
back to reality

i knew it would lead us somewhere