Sorry seems to be the hardest word / Sunday, May 04, 2008

The one time when i felt it really hard to say sorry was to my mom.

I rmb i was yelling at her on the phone over some minor issue. This was a my workplace, and i think my colleagues who were sitting around during break time heard me. I was yelling till i was near to tears because i was so frustrated with my mom.

After i ended work, i cried on the bus on my way home. The feeling of guilt really sucks. I didnt even think of how my mom would feel being yelled at by her daughter. I rmbed making a deal with myself, "You won't sleep in peace tonight unless you say sorry to her and really mean it." It's really hard for me because i've never in my life said and mean the word Sorry to my mom.

So i smsed my mom and told her im sorry for yelling at her in the afternoon cos i was in a bad mood. She replied Nvm, and then changed the topic to something like What time i coming home, need to eat supper or not and so on. Immediately, my heart felt so much lighter. The guilt was gone, but i am reminded not to repeat the same mistake again.

So, saying Sorry and really mean it is quite tough for some ppl. But no matter how tough it is, it will lighten your guilt load once the word is out. Yea, though the matter wont be forgotten, won't it be nice to know that you're forgiven? The relationship between the 2 parties won''t result in what would have been an awkward one.




It's a little cheesy lah, but i gotta say it. I feel i have to apologise to someone because i wrongly accused him/her. I said/typed out those stuff on impulse, and its really not your fault. I don't blame you anymore at all. :)

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

Sorry seems to be the hardest word / Sunday, May 04, 2008

The one time when i felt it really hard to say sorry was to my mom.

I rmb i was yelling at her on the phone over some minor issue. This was a my workplace, and i think my colleagues who were sitting around during break time heard me. I was yelling till i was near to tears because i was so frustrated with my mom.

After i ended work, i cried on the bus on my way home. The feeling of guilt really sucks. I didnt even think of how my mom would feel being yelled at by her daughter. I rmbed making a deal with myself, "You won't sleep in peace tonight unless you say sorry to her and really mean it." It's really hard for me because i've never in my life said and mean the word Sorry to my mom.

So i smsed my mom and told her im sorry for yelling at her in the afternoon cos i was in a bad mood. She replied Nvm, and then changed the topic to something like What time i coming home, need to eat supper or not and so on. Immediately, my heart felt so much lighter. The guilt was gone, but i am reminded not to repeat the same mistake again.

So, saying Sorry and really mean it is quite tough for some ppl. But no matter how tough it is, it will lighten your guilt load once the word is out. Yea, though the matter wont be forgotten, won't it be nice to know that you're forgiven? The relationship between the 2 parties won''t result in what would have been an awkward one.




It's a little cheesy lah, but i gotta say it. I feel i have to apologise to someone because i wrongly accused him/her. I said/typed out those stuff on impulse, and its really not your fault. I don't blame you anymore at all. :)

No signboards
no direction from here.
But I think we should climb on

I see lots of clouds,
damn where are the signs.

Oh I see it, there's light!
And there's a path
a path that leads us
back to reality

i knew it would lead us somewhere