It's time I woke up / Friday, January 02, 2009

Few things happened around me these days, so fast that i can barely catch up. All i gotta say is, i used to compare and wish i were someone else. I feel i'm not good enough. But i've woken up already. I wanna hold onto friendships while being myself. Losing myself to please others doesn't make sense. Being judgemental and all alr spells something about the character. Do i wanna be part of it? No. People who cant accept others for who they are should look deeper into the mirror. 2 days ago, i did something small, but i know it means a lot to her. I thank her for giving me that opportunity to tell the truth (harsh truth). Telling the harsh truth in someone's face is really hard. Think love confession. yup. As tough as that. And for someone like me, escaping is top choice. I'm learning...

Know the meaning of 'treasuring' something? I sure do, but a little too late. Found myself thinking, how different things would be this year if we 4 had stuck tgt. Things would have been SOO different now. We had the whole yr tgt, but i only treasured the friendship once we're separated. Dunno if y'all feel the same. Trust me when i say i'll put in effort in the friendship. I'm happy to be there for you guys.

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

It's time I woke up / Friday, January 02, 2009

Few things happened around me these days, so fast that i can barely catch up. All i gotta say is, i used to compare and wish i were someone else. I feel i'm not good enough. But i've woken up already. I wanna hold onto friendships while being myself. Losing myself to please others doesn't make sense. Being judgemental and all alr spells something about the character. Do i wanna be part of it? No. People who cant accept others for who they are should look deeper into the mirror. 2 days ago, i did something small, but i know it means a lot to her. I thank her for giving me that opportunity to tell the truth (harsh truth). Telling the harsh truth in someone's face is really hard. Think love confession. yup. As tough as that. And for someone like me, escaping is top choice. I'm learning...

Know the meaning of 'treasuring' something? I sure do, but a little too late. Found myself thinking, how different things would be this year if we 4 had stuck tgt. Things would have been SOO different now. We had the whole yr tgt, but i only treasured the friendship once we're separated. Dunno if y'all feel the same. Trust me when i say i'll put in effort in the friendship. I'm happy to be there for you guys.

No signboards
no direction from here.
But I think we should climb on

I see lots of clouds,
damn where are the signs.

Oh I see it, there's light!
And there's a path
a path that leads us
back to reality

i knew it would lead us somewhere