/ Saturday, January 10, 2009

Rewind a little. On Thur, SP open hse started. Quite a gd turnout bah, but Business sch quite empty. Lots of freebies! we saw ppl carrying new urban male paper bags and we were like Let's go and find the source of it! Thought maybe there's a NUM shirt inside?? At last rach took it and there's nothin much inside, just a hanky and a friskbee which kim insists is a car sunlight blocker.

After sch, we had CONB grp discussion. Sian sia! gotta go out and do survey. Our allotted area, Orchard Road & suntec, of all places. Town, so malu! Anw we divided the work so its easier to get respondents. Went to convention centre to meet rach, where all the hype of open hse is. Got food vouchers. And free cotton candy and popcorn! Got pink popcorn. Rach also used JH's coupons to treat me lunch! Alright, i know im downright cheapo, i'll face it.

I agreed to this p/t job. Door to door flyer distributor at Yishun, 2.30pm (that means gotta pon 2 lectures.) I just took it for fun and the exercise. The pay is seriously pathetic, 10 hdb blocks $20. I thought it would be just ~tiring, but its def more than that. To me it's like traumatising. Kena blister. Front of my right shoe splitted like a banana.

Things that ran thru my mind during the job:
[after first block] i wanna quit now and run away with the papers...
I've reached the last level, can i just jump down from here?
[came to staircase centre]Mm.. if i throw the papers from here, bet none will drop to the first floor..
If i quit halfway and just throw the papers away, will i get arrested some day?

At one point, i retardedly dropped the whole stack of papers, and everything just flew in different directions. I felt like bawling. and in my state of weariness and dreaminess, i expected some nice person to help me pick up. Shit, dreaming in broad daylight.

Oh oh! And got encounters with many dogs!! Bark until so fierce, so cute! One house, got 1 brown poodle, and 1 smaller white poodle. Freakin cute! And the best thing? The small one RAN out through the unfenced doorgate and lick my leg. It didn't even have to squeeze thru. It came out and looked lost and hesitant, like it was its first time doing it. Damn shock, the owner was like "jiji! come back!" and i was pointing in horror at the dog and saying It just ran out! Think the owner thinks i'm afraid of dogs. In fact, i'm afraid the owner will just come home and find her dog missing one day.

Did 9 blocks from 2.30 to 7.30pm. Gave up on the last block. 5 traumatising hours of work- earn $22 inclusive of transport. Sad life. But i felt like a winner, cos i perservered for 9 blocks. I'll never ever look down on flyer distributors, cos it really takes a lot of energy and perserverence to keep going. And its like deja vu, doing same thing over & over agn.

I'M A WINNER.

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ Saturday, January 10, 2009

Rewind a little. On Thur, SP open hse started. Quite a gd turnout bah, but Business sch quite empty. Lots of freebies! we saw ppl carrying new urban male paper bags and we were like Let's go and find the source of it! Thought maybe there's a NUM shirt inside?? At last rach took it and there's nothin much inside, just a hanky and a friskbee which kim insists is a car sunlight blocker.

After sch, we had CONB grp discussion. Sian sia! gotta go out and do survey. Our allotted area, Orchard Road & suntec, of all places. Town, so malu! Anw we divided the work so its easier to get respondents. Went to convention centre to meet rach, where all the hype of open hse is. Got food vouchers. And free cotton candy and popcorn! Got pink popcorn. Rach also used JH's coupons to treat me lunch! Alright, i know im downright cheapo, i'll face it.

I agreed to this p/t job. Door to door flyer distributor at Yishun, 2.30pm (that means gotta pon 2 lectures.) I just took it for fun and the exercise. The pay is seriously pathetic, 10 hdb blocks $20. I thought it would be just ~tiring, but its def more than that. To me it's like traumatising. Kena blister. Front of my right shoe splitted like a banana.

Things that ran thru my mind during the job:
[after first block] i wanna quit now and run away with the papers...
I've reached the last level, can i just jump down from here?
[came to staircase centre]Mm.. if i throw the papers from here, bet none will drop to the first floor..
If i quit halfway and just throw the papers away, will i get arrested some day?

At one point, i retardedly dropped the whole stack of papers, and everything just flew in different directions. I felt like bawling. and in my state of weariness and dreaminess, i expected some nice person to help me pick up. Shit, dreaming in broad daylight.

Oh oh! And got encounters with many dogs!! Bark until so fierce, so cute! One house, got 1 brown poodle, and 1 smaller white poodle. Freakin cute! And the best thing? The small one RAN out through the unfenced doorgate and lick my leg. It didn't even have to squeeze thru. It came out and looked lost and hesitant, like it was its first time doing it. Damn shock, the owner was like "jiji! come back!" and i was pointing in horror at the dog and saying It just ran out! Think the owner thinks i'm afraid of dogs. In fact, i'm afraid the owner will just come home and find her dog missing one day.

Did 9 blocks from 2.30 to 7.30pm. Gave up on the last block. 5 traumatising hours of work- earn $22 inclusive of transport. Sad life. But i felt like a winner, cos i perservered for 9 blocks. I'll never ever look down on flyer distributors, cos it really takes a lot of energy and perserverence to keep going. And its like deja vu, doing same thing over & over agn.

I'M A WINNER.

No signboards
no direction from here.
But I think we should climb on

I see lots of clouds,
damn where are the signs.

Oh I see it, there's light!
And there's a path
a path that leads us
back to reality

i knew it would lead us somewhere