/ Thursday, February 05, 2009

Yst went to school for the sake of blaw mtg. 10 min and mtg over. After that nina asked me acc her for her GEMs proj mtg at main library. Nina brave sia, she only girl in her grp the rest 3 guys. Thanks to nina, now the guys think my name is Bernard. BERNARD!!!

Watched Friends (In her shoes dvd spoil!) in the media room while they role play. After that we went macs to eat. Supposed to meet tgt to go my hse tgt to bai nian. Kim at last cant make it. It was then it started pouring. We finished our chicken foldover, then went to the security guard post there to wait for rach. Sasi caught us, say we flirting with SG. haha

By the time we reached our hse, its alr 5 plus. Played cards unknowingly all the way till 9 plus. Rach seriously doesnt have gambling luck lol! When she bet with money, she gets sucky cards. When she bets with pistachio nuts, she wins my pistachio nuts! Fate with nuts. Wah, last round most exciting. Nina put down all 80c instead of 20c. Then she open card, BLACKJACK. I sian diao, then saw my cards, i also BLACKJACK!! I forgot how hard i slammed the table with my cards, but i know nina and i both screamed at the same time, and rach screamed also cos we screamed. Freakin funny lah! This sat, confirm go buy some 4d number alr hahah

Today is thur. Had some SAT talk after school today. It's an exam which is recommended for students who wanna go american uni. The course which teaches tricks and tips costs $890, while the exam itself is US $70. Quite interested lah. After chatting with aq, was kinda inspired to follow my interest in advertising no matter what. To the extent of gg America alone to pursue yr studies. I dunno if i'm that strong. And i question my passion in ads also. Not even sure if that's for me lah. From books, i read that this industry need talent and thick face and perseverance and network. Dunno whether my personality and way of doing things suits it or not. And also wonder if i keep dong ads, will i get bored of it? Stressed out until give up? Those with real passion will keep doing and editing until they feel its perfect. Like a ... perfectionist. America got some gd unis for ad also. That's why im considering SAT. But dunno if got link or not leh.. cos the questions they give is like a maths all over again! And primary school english. I wondering if they're kidding me...

Well, anw. ITP is out and word has spread quite fast in class that my pay quite high haha. Company is JUZZ1. Where? Funan IT Mall. This is just greeeaaaat mannn. It's so damn qian bian that the school just send any business student to do sales job. Direct sales is under marketing??? true to some extent la, but i hate that fact!! I think the business course is way too general, that's why we can be sent to any post. What i'm afraid of the current job is the environment (think ABs), a 6 day work week. And the best part? The pay is half of what a normal person gets. Itp using cheap labour mann.

Was very determined to ask LO to change company for me, cos i heard of success stories from a friend that he continues to earn the normal pay rate while working as some job totally unrelated from his course. Is that shiok or what. Felt like a person on a mission. Today called up Lucas and company intern in-charge,BW. Great, he's on leave until the next week. Lucas was strict about not allowing company changes. Say distance not a good reason. With BW on leave, very hard to find out what i'm supposed to do during ITP. haiz disappointed. After that found that actually that friend alr applied for the own-company thing in december alr, that's why got his own company. Fixed alr, most prob cant change company alr.

Damn sad, but trying to look on the bright side. Guys should be fun to work with. Now recession, sales should be pretty slacky. Never done sales b4, why not try out? (At funan of all places). I wanna go funan it mall to spy on the place first b4 i start work man. Lol who wanna acc meee?

No-life begins for most yr2s now. For me, tmr conb presentation. monday 9 feb blaw report + feb ca3 paper. fri 13 feb, gems online test in SP. Exam week till 27 feb, then ITP starts. I dunno which is worse, itp or exams.

Rar, hope to meet up with pebbs to catch upin study week, regardless of exams. Cos when exams and itp starts, all i'm left is the weekends. Or maybe only Sunday. arghhh

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ Thursday, February 05, 2009

Yst went to school for the sake of blaw mtg. 10 min and mtg over. After that nina asked me acc her for her GEMs proj mtg at main library. Nina brave sia, she only girl in her grp the rest 3 guys. Thanks to nina, now the guys think my name is Bernard. BERNARD!!!

Watched Friends (In her shoes dvd spoil!) in the media room while they role play. After that we went macs to eat. Supposed to meet tgt to go my hse tgt to bai nian. Kim at last cant make it. It was then it started pouring. We finished our chicken foldover, then went to the security guard post there to wait for rach. Sasi caught us, say we flirting with SG. haha

By the time we reached our hse, its alr 5 plus. Played cards unknowingly all the way till 9 plus. Rach seriously doesnt have gambling luck lol! When she bet with money, she gets sucky cards. When she bets with pistachio nuts, she wins my pistachio nuts! Fate with nuts. Wah, last round most exciting. Nina put down all 80c instead of 20c. Then she open card, BLACKJACK. I sian diao, then saw my cards, i also BLACKJACK!! I forgot how hard i slammed the table with my cards, but i know nina and i both screamed at the same time, and rach screamed also cos we screamed. Freakin funny lah! This sat, confirm go buy some 4d number alr hahah

Today is thur. Had some SAT talk after school today. It's an exam which is recommended for students who wanna go american uni. The course which teaches tricks and tips costs $890, while the exam itself is US $70. Quite interested lah. After chatting with aq, was kinda inspired to follow my interest in advertising no matter what. To the extent of gg America alone to pursue yr studies. I dunno if i'm that strong. And i question my passion in ads also. Not even sure if that's for me lah. From books, i read that this industry need talent and thick face and perseverance and network. Dunno whether my personality and way of doing things suits it or not. And also wonder if i keep dong ads, will i get bored of it? Stressed out until give up? Those with real passion will keep doing and editing until they feel its perfect. Like a ... perfectionist. America got some gd unis for ad also. That's why im considering SAT. But dunno if got link or not leh.. cos the questions they give is like a maths all over again! And primary school english. I wondering if they're kidding me...

Well, anw. ITP is out and word has spread quite fast in class that my pay quite high haha. Company is JUZZ1. Where? Funan IT Mall. This is just greeeaaaat mannn. It's so damn qian bian that the school just send any business student to do sales job. Direct sales is under marketing??? true to some extent la, but i hate that fact!! I think the business course is way too general, that's why we can be sent to any post. What i'm afraid of the current job is the environment (think ABs), a 6 day work week. And the best part? The pay is half of what a normal person gets. Itp using cheap labour mann.

Was very determined to ask LO to change company for me, cos i heard of success stories from a friend that he continues to earn the normal pay rate while working as some job totally unrelated from his course. Is that shiok or what. Felt like a person on a mission. Today called up Lucas and company intern in-charge,BW. Great, he's on leave until the next week. Lucas was strict about not allowing company changes. Say distance not a good reason. With BW on leave, very hard to find out what i'm supposed to do during ITP. haiz disappointed. After that found that actually that friend alr applied for the own-company thing in december alr, that's why got his own company. Fixed alr, most prob cant change company alr.

Damn sad, but trying to look on the bright side. Guys should be fun to work with. Now recession, sales should be pretty slacky. Never done sales b4, why not try out? (At funan of all places). I wanna go funan it mall to spy on the place first b4 i start work man. Lol who wanna acc meee?

No-life begins for most yr2s now. For me, tmr conb presentation. monday 9 feb blaw report + feb ca3 paper. fri 13 feb, gems online test in SP. Exam week till 27 feb, then ITP starts. I dunno which is worse, itp or exams.

Rar, hope to meet up with pebbs to catch upin study week, regardless of exams. Cos when exams and itp starts, all i'm left is the weekends. Or maybe only Sunday. arghhh

No signboards
no direction from here.
But I think we should climb on

I see lots of clouds,
damn where are the signs.

Oh I see it, there's light!
And there's a path
a path that leads us
back to reality

i knew it would lead us somewhere